Whenever I try and learn something new

ME: It seems that I am not immediately excellent at this

ME: ...

ME: It is because I am a failure

ME: everything I touch dies

This is accurate. I love learning, but I can't admit that I'm not immediatly excellent at something. I should be! I understand how it works, THEN WHY ON EARTH AM I FAILING?!
This is frustrating. I don't understand.